I feel like I’m losing myself. As if I don’t have control of where I’m going. It scares me.
I haven’t really told anyone what is going on in my heart. I’ve not really been one to hide things, but I have secrets and I feel myself holding back from letting anyone know. I’m not sure if I’m more afraid of their response to what is going on, or my own admittance of it.
I feel lonely.. it’s a deep-seated loneliness too.
I’m further than I’ve ever expected to be.. I don’t even want to write about it. Maybe tomorrow. 
